So it is that another year has passed and I didn’t really move forward like I had anticipated. Little daily setbacks or procrastinations add up to loss of focus, loss of goals. So what will I do differently this year? How about not putting a time line to it and actually making LIFE changes. Everyone tells me that I have all this potential to be great if I just decide what I want to do and do it. There is still such a large part of me that does not know what I want to do. Write, like I dreamed of in college? When will I do that? Definitely requires a commitment to write every day….to see writing as more than an occasional whim. I could continue in my legal career and obtain a paralegal certificate. Possibly. Will pay the bills and I am good at it so far. But in this field I need to be super sharp, look good and have confidence since I am older than most of the competition.
Got the super sharp thing down. What I lack is the confidence in myself. For me confidence comes from being fit or at least being on the road to fitness. What will keep me pushing onward and upward is to change the way I see food. Food is sustenance, nutrition, energy. What I put in will manifest itself either through improvement or detriment. I think what I will do is take a picture of myself in my skivvies and put it on my fridge. You know, motivation to not open the damn thing so much. Yet it is not even that I eat so much, I just eat wrong and eat too many calories at dinner. Dinner needs to be my lightest meal. This I can manage. And down with sugar. Oh sugar how I do love thee. But all it does is create belly fat. And that I do not love.
I know this one thing…2014 is a fresh slate. The joys, the disappointments, the living, the avoiding…in the end may the happy outweigh the sad. May I not pass an opportunity for joy, for kindness, for love. That is my greatest potential…to truly live.
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